Lynn and her Beloved
Tuesday January 15th 2013, 11:13 pm
Filed under: Friends,Knit,Life

Lynn, here, the post where I got to meet her in person in Texas the day after she got engaged, her happiness lighting up the whole church. I got to see her again last month when we came back to see my in-laws, and Lynn and I spent an evening at her old knitting group in the Madeline Tosh ship in Ft Worth where she’d been a regular before she’d married and moved a few towns away.

I twirl a small forkful of Lynn’s late mother-in-law’s orange honey that she gifted me with about every other day, savoring it, trying not to run out too fast, thinking of her and how grateful I am for her friendship every time I look at that jar. How glad I am that she and her Beloved found each other in their lives.

Yesterday was their first anniversary.

Today her beloved, one of the very best, slipped away before hospice could even finish setting up at their house.

I’ve wanted to grab the next flight. I can’t afford it. What I did do was go searching in my house, for–something, I didn’t know what, and found a shawl project that I’d long ago stalled out on: it had been put aside while I’d debated how to finish it and while I had had people needing the love from something hand knit Right Now, and so the shawl had become abandoned altogether and at last pretty much forgotten other than the occasional guilt twinge in its direction.

I didn’t even remember which pattern it was; I was surprised when I pulled it out to see it was Y not Z. Huh. I always did like that yarn.

I sat down with it. I decided, seventeen months after I’d started, at long last what to do: a few rows there, that’s all it had needed all this time, that and a decision, and I cast it off, blocked it, and with that I tied up one loose end in my own life. It is done. And after its submersion in the water, it feels like one of the most beautiful things I have ever knit.

And it’s not at all Lynn’s color, darnit.

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So sorry to hear this. I know Lynn feels your love.

Comment by Sherry in Idaho 01.16.13 @ 8:40 am

I find it amazing that you ALWAYS have something when needed. I’m guessing that you don’t argue when a piece of knitting says, “Put me down!”

Comment by Don Meyer 01.16.13 @ 9:52 am

sometimes letting a project “marinate” is the best thing

my thoughts are with you

Comment by bev 01.16.13 @ 10:32 am

Its about the comfort, not the color.

Comment by Diana Troldahl 01.16.13 @ 6:46 pm

What love is knitted into everything you make. I know Lynn will feel that in whatever you end up making for her, even if this shawl isn’t it.

Comment by Pegi 01.16.13 @ 8:21 pm

Yes, sometimes we just have to DO something, to process it all and channel the energy. It might not be her color, but it us someone’s. Like all the things she makes for the chariity box. My thoughts are with you and Lynn.

Comment by DebbieR 01.16.13 @ 10:10 pm

Love Diana’s comment. You did SOMETHING, and that’s beautiful.

Comment by Channon 01.17.13 @ 9:03 am

Sad at your friends loss, but grateful she found her Beloved in time to lose him. I hope that makes sense.

Comment by twinsetellen 01.17.13 @ 6:47 pm

OK, this explains that huge spike in visits to my blog the other day. I should have known! Love you, girl. You and your tribe are in my prayers. (I begin to comprehend that scripture about shortening the days so the elect can bear it.) Oye!

Comment by Lynn 01.18.13 @ 12:03 pm

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