I go in every six months to see if it’s time for that retina surgery yet and today was the day.

Look at the blue dot, the tech said. Not the red line moving up and down. Look at the blue dot.

It took concentration not to let the red distract me–the blue held still and had a touch of a halo to it that was charming but that line, if you can call it that, wiggled and wobbled and threw its edges around like a spider’s legs on a wall while looking like it had been cut lengthwise with pinking shears.

Then they did the other eye. Now there was just a plain line going slowly up and down. No drama, just round and blue, straight and red, each conveying their information.

Looks great! said the retina specialist a few minutes later, pleased. It’s stable. That’s very good. Come in every six months and we’ll keep tabs on it, but we don’t have to do surgery for now.

Then this doctor, a man of color, asked me about my experience of how I was seeing, though, and I told him frankly, That (nodding towards the computer) surprises me.But then, in a flash of truth as I realized how it had been affecting me more than I thought–

–and what followed was one of those moments where you know you said just the right thing and that the person wasn’t expecting it but was so relieved and gratified to hear it–

I said, But maybe that’s just because of all the political noise going on right now.

One blue dot connected with another and we saw each other clearly. He seemed a little lighter of step walking out of there.