He was maybe in his 40’s, happy as a clam and very extroverted. He greeted whoever moved and thereby caught his eye: How ya doin’! He told the woman with him all about the fish in the wall aquarium they were looking at. I don’t think I ever saw him sit. He was all about being up and lively and chattering away.
It was striking how she seemed patient but resigned. Not upset, more like a mom at the museum stuck with her small child in tow after the babysitter bailed. Because as the minutes went on, watching her watching him, I think I understood–when he turned and saw me looking his way as I reached into my knitting bag to pull another length of yarn, I got a happy, How ya doin’! too: in the way of a small child, utterly harmless. I got an impression of lack of memory and of a soul distilled to its essence. Its goodness.
I thought, if you’re going to have a brain injury, a cheerful one seems to me a very good one to have. But I did not ask.
They called his name and he went back for his scan alone while she got a few minutes to herself.
One of the nurses who popped out the door to call off names, the second time I saw her, took a moment to come over and comment on my knitting before disappearing again. Later, she came out again and talked a little more. She mentioned a local yarn store. When I said I’d heard Louise had had a stroke and had sold the shop, she brightened–so I did know the place!– and told me how sweet the new owner was. I confessed to not having been in in awhile; I tend to go to my favorite, Purlescence.
Which was a new one to her. I didn’t think (I was on Benedryl!) to give the context, in case she might be a longtime knitter like me, that it was in the former Carolea’s Knitsche. So I’m writing it here in case she sees this; I gave her my blog addy.
She said something tentatively that–I was sure I heard “Stitches” and it was! Oh yes, I know about Stitches, I signed books there! (Been going since Tess, the namesake of Tess Designer Yarns, was a preschooler, and she’s in her early 20’s now.)
You know what the result of all this is: I couldn’t put down my knitting. I had cast on and done maybe three rows before leaving home, and there I was growing it as fast as possible for showing off. No reading my Newsweek for a hands break, no way. Knit knit knit! On this cool idea I’d had a month earlier, when I’d bought the Camelspin at–of course–Purlescence.
I was trying to figure out the details of a new pattern for it while on Benedryl. Dumb, but that’s what motivated me so I did it. I made it look terribly complicated, counting stitches, running my hands through my hair, tinking back stitch by stitch over and over, wondering why something so easy wasn’t intuitive–DUH! It’s the drug, stupid–making slow progress anyway.
It’s not finished but it’s a goodly way along and I am very pleased. And very pleased to be nearly done. Post-Pred crash tomorrow and then that is that and it’s a race to see which is completed first.
One other thing: a couple came in and as the woman’s name was called, I looked up as she passed me and I smiled and wished her good luck. She relaxed at that and smiled too for the first time. A few minutes later, as she and her sweetheart were leaving, she turned before the doorway and called across the small waiting room to me, “Good luck to you too!”
Totally made my day. And you know? It was that cheerful man before, whom she’d arrived too late to see, who’d set the tone so that I felt comfortable speaking up like that.
My folks had no idea I had been seriously coveting those very books. Those exact ones. I couldn’t justify them, I hadn’t bought them, and now here they are anyway. Wow.
I tell you. I have the best parents ever. And they have perfect timing. Speaking of which, and? My friend Debbie, who lives near where my Dad grew up, emailed me pictures yesterday of what she’d seen while birding over the weekend.
Dad? Pelicans in Nevada? You never told me that!