Two days of overthinking how to create the marvelous stupendous hat I was envisioning and not getting past a tentative cast-on: 13 just won’t go into 70, I’m sorry.
Today I looked at it and suddenly knew, okay, this works. Plain and simple. Enough of the kibbitzing–go. Given that I was too ill to stay past the first meeting at church, then I needed something creative and I needed to be looking forward to making somebody happy: I needed the therapeutic effects of looking beyond myself, and thank goodness that such a solitary hobby lets love be wrapped into every stitch.
About five rows into it, looking at it, part of me suddenly wanted to pout, but that’s not how I thought it was going to look! Yes, but this works. Just do it.
Sometimes I have to create a thing once to look at before I can create it just so. You need the experience to extrapolate from before making more progress. There will be more than one hat.
I’m glad for the huge, medication-resistant Crohn’s flare I had five years ago–it helps me see that this one isn’t so bad. It also reminds me of how so much good came from it that I’m actually glad it happened. There’s an example at the end of this post. It’s having it be in the past that was a part that I’d really liked, too, though.
Re the hat. I find myself marveling that this design all fell into place so easily once I let go of how I was demanding it turn out.